yearly resolutions are so big and, well, sort of unmanageable.  i'm spending some time reflecting on what i seek to accomplish this week.

- my goal this week is to SLOW DOWN and take care of myself.  slow down.  slow down.  it's not natural to be pushing this hard during a season of reflection and rest anyhow.  not to mention, physically, it's breaking me.  (uh, mentally too.)  i will accomplish this goal by: being inside my bed, under covers, with a book, by 10pm every night this week, starting tonight.  i will drink more tea and get reacquainted with my heating pad (yes, i am a grandma). i'm going to work on planning/doing things ahead of time.  so much of my 9pm to 12am rushing is from the smallest things that have now become big things because i didn't just do them when they were small.  i will continue a little thing i've been doing that has been an enormous shift - getting up before adam.  i have noticed that if i get up at 6:30, just 1 hour before him, i accomplish SO much more in that hour, freeing me up for the time he's awake to 1- not be as stressed about all the other stuff i need to do and 2- be a more engaged parent.  doing this helps me feel more accomplished and confident all day long. also, then when HE naps, i too can put my feet up and rest or sleep too, instead of trying to squeeze in "stuff" during his down time.