marin is getting fatter and is suchsuchsuchsuch an adorable little baby.  she's like a doll.  her little life is starting to make sense to me, making things less mysterious and somewhat easier.  she's different from her brother and being with her has been a whole new learning experience.

every day things get easier.  things have been super duper hard for awhile.  and now things are starting to make sense again.  she is sleeping  a little more during the day and a lot more during the night - technically, all night.  she sleeps from 8pm to 5:30am or so most nights.  what a difference a night's sleep makes!  i've been in yoga classes back to back, more than one in a day sometimes, grass-sitting with a pal in a park chatting overlooking the sea, reading excellent books, and - the most important part, probably - my partner home, so i have a friend and extra hands.  last night, eric worked, and i came home from teaching at 8pm or so.  thanks to our nanny, kiddos were almost immediately in bed after i came home and i sat down with my book, some ice cream and red wine.  i read in silence in our living room till 930 and it was so wonderful.  this morning, as i washed my face, my stomach growled loudly.... ah.  i forgot to eat dinner last night.  i was so excited and thankful for the silence, the book, the time alone and the red wine that i never made myself a meal. 

time for a big breakfast.