whenever i read a blog and the writer suddenly doesn't post anymore i sometimes wonder if something bad happened.  don't ask why my mind goes there, but it does. 

if you know me, you know why i haven't been so busy on this blog.  and if you don't know me, i can tell you that we are all fine and dandy and there is no need to worry!  this has been a very very very busy time in life and sadly i haven't done a very good job of documenting all that's swirling.  all good things - but just so many good things that writing it all down isn't something i've had much time (or gumption) for.

adam's started preschool, a co op, which takes some time on my part.  parent meetings, occasionally working in the classroom, attending field trips, etc.  he LOVES his school and so do eric and i.  he is saying all the days of the week, counting to 35, will be getting his drivers license next weekend... i kid.  but really, it's been such a wonderful experience so far.

marin is a chubby little jelly bean who i just adore and could simply eat up.  she's so squishy and smiley and we love her to bits.  she's eating a few solid foods and sleeping like a log at night time, thisclose to sitting on her own.  her eyes are blue blue blue blue and seem that they might stay that way.  i just love her so much.

breathing room is busting at the seams, i wish i could make our room roomier!  almost all our classes are full.  something has shifted recently, i think a combonation of efforts and community support and amazing teachers and the right schedule... things are good.  we're adding classes, finally going digital and off our paper system and working on a teacher training for the late winter and spring.  things are amazing and it's hard to believe i've been at it for nearly a year.  i can tell i am becoming a stronger teacher and i can't stop reading and studying - things are good, feel right.

i put in notice at my "day job" and will be leaving at the end of the year.  until then, i've scaled back my schedule by a lot.  i'm simply working too much and pretty much going nutso doing it all.  i can't maintain a solid focus on any one thing b/c i am constantly pulled in so many directions, it's been insane (not to mention i basically hand my entire paycheck to our nanny at the end of each week :( ).  i had to look at the things that make me happy and prioritize (don't think i am not THANKFUL to be in the position to even be able to do that!).  i like working and have been building my career for over a decade.  however, this job comes last on the happy list, so it was time for me to go. 

eric's still working working working, but we're getting better at adjusting and making it a norm.  when he is home he is the dad and husband and friend of the year, and for this i am thankful.  he always puts us first and i honestly couldn't ask for more.  i am forever grateful for his unending support in every single thing i want to try or do and that he is the dad to our children - they are very lucky.

last weekend, eric stayed home with the kiddos so i could fly to dc sort of last minute to see my girlfriends (and go see the twilight movie...? oh  yes!)  it was beyond wonderful.  how nice, after a year of having to make new friends, meet new people, strike up conversations at the playground, tentatively "friend" other moms on facebook, etce tc etc, to fall right into step with my group of good friends - to wear sweatpants and sit on the floor of my friend's apartment and drink wine and laugh about things you can't possibly share with people who aren't your good, old friends.  plus, being with them reminded me (and yes, sometimes the reminder is needed) that i'm still a girl, a young one at that, and not just a mom/chef/accountant/maid. 

it was a great weekend.

now it is thanksgiving and mostly i have been thinking about all the things i have done in the past sevearl years.  planned a wedding in hawaii in 6 weeks, had two babies - first of which was a giant surprise, having just turned 26 and only been married 8 months when i found out i was pregnant, moved to a state i'd only been to once - a city i'd never visited, gotten jobs, quit jobs, opened a business, followed my dream and heart...  so much stuff.  i have never wanted to do something and NOT just done it.  so i am thankful for all the opportunities i have had, but also thankful for the voice or crazyness or spark of courage or WHATEVER it is inside me that always says - YES, you can do it.