things are so good.

there are so many things that are hard, but there are so many more things that are good.  i think all of life is hard, you have to look for those shining moments, those bliss spots, the little pure, clear, real moments of AH.  these hold you up through all the rest.

the way marin smiles at adam bigger than anyone else.  the way adam tells me that the snow is "milking" or that he wants ice cream with "skrinkles" every day.  the way eric answers my questions before i even ask them or reads my thoughts now without my having to say them.  the handsome way he looks doing regular every day things, like unloading the dishwasher or playing me in scrabble (on our phones, of course:)), the way i have scarily but necessarily created some space in my life to do more of what i love and, miraculously, so far, things are moving along just fine, the way this scary but very intentional shift has made me feel more powerful, more loving, more spacious, more ... happy.

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adam is insanely smart and adorable. he asks questions and has thoughts for things he does not yet know the correct words for.  his brain is moving like a little freight train.  he's crazy courageous lately, swimming like a fish in the pool at the Y, jumping in barely holding a noodle and i am swimming over quickly to save him when he's flailing under the water.  no sooner do i lift him, he is climbing back out to jump in and do it all again. sweet baby marin is covered in cute and squishy but has a little cold and is getting teeth, so she's a fussy little meatball. she's crawling, sort of, on her back, which is hilarious to watch and i must video soon.  she tilts her head back so the top of her head is on the floor, so she can see where she's going.  then she kicks her legs and waves her arms to get to where she wants to move to.  so funny.  eric's got a BUSY winter of travel. there are maybe 10 inches of snow outside right now. 

our teacher training has just one or two spots left.  i realized the other day there are 13 weekends and at least 7 guest teachers!  i am so so so grateful to be studying myself with all these amazing teachers coming to our studio.  this entire experience is incredibly surreal and still i pinch myself everyday to make sure it's still reality i am living in.

the studio and my classes and the teachers i am working with are so so wonderful. we have a little tight community over there and our classes are full for the most part.  i mean, it's not all rainbows and sunshine - running a small biz sucks sometimes, dealing with the city or the taxes or the contractors or the bills, hiring and training, balancing the finances.  but like i already said, i am on a search for those happy nuggets - the rest is just the way life goes.  so many happy nuggets.  so many  bliss moments.  everyday i am so grateful to be here.  i'm so very happy.  and this place has resulted in happiness arriving in many many other people. i'm glad  that i took (and continue to take) so many chances, and thankful to be on this ride. thankful for the supportive net of people who are with me. crazy grateful.