today was a love my life kinda day.  nothing special, just lots of special moments

doctoring adam's ripped and torn paper dragon from his chinese new year celebration at preschool.  the streamers keep falling off, he plays it so much.  he held the "legs" in place while i glued and taped.  again.  and again.

shoveling snow, breathing cold air into my warm body.  it snowed all day long.  making a snowman with adam, snow angels, letting him "help" with the shovel.

built a fire and actually sat on the couch, in the middle of the house-hurricane -- dishes, lunch crumbs ALL over the dining room floor, coats and boots strewn, dora matching cards all over the floor, unfolded laundry in a basket -- to read and drink tea under a blanket while my kids napped.  this one hour made all the difference.  must do this more often.

holding adam while i made dinner because he wanted to see what was in the pan - brown rice, peas, carrots, chicken. 

adam asking me if those things we paint with we put in our ears?  it took a LONG time and lots of three-year-old frustration before i figured out that he must have painted with q-tips at school and to tell him, no, only mommy and daddy can put those in ears...

adam telling me a story that went like this: once upon a time, i went on a walk in the forest and i found a baby lion and i gave him some milk, and then i saw a baby skunk and i gave him some milk and he didn't poop on me, and then i saw a baby squeel (squirrel) and gave him some milk and then i came home,  the end!

marin chewing up two of those dora cards before adam or i even noticed.  her looooong nap mid-day today, allowing me that couch-sitting, fire-side, tea and reading break.  her excited smile and her happiness with her brother.  i swear of all the people she ever sees, she loves adam the most of all.  i hope hope hope hope hope hope hope that this lasts.  they are so in love with each other.  the first and last things adam does every day is ask to hug her and kiss her.  and i've never seen her smile so big as when he's around.

and this evening, i got my entire to-do list done BEFORE midnight (ie, work/studio stuff) and so i'm off to read and tea more.  working on soothing a sore throat and reading the hunger games (book 2).  can't stop.

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my worst time of day is morning, first couple hours..  i am SO crabby and grumpy and rushed and annoyed.  i know that this is because i am hungry.  i am hungry because i wait till the last possibly minute to get up (approx 20 mins before the babies) and i cannot eat for awhile when i get up.  i cannot eat for awhile because i have to take some medicine on an empty stomach.  eric told me recently that hunger is my big weakness.  he is so right.

well.  this is totally fixable.

i don't like this crabby me.  i don't like getting irritated with adam because he isn't opening wide enough when i try to brush his teeth.  or feeling like screaming when the baby is crying or telling adam to hurry hurry HURRY to the car.  it totally totally sucks. 

so.

tomorrow - up at 6am.  food in my belly as soon as i am able.  things ready to go out the door (self included) before children awaken around 7am.  some things you just can't fix, and some you can.  this changes tomorrow.  no more hunger-danger-zone-mornings.