http://stylecourt.blogspot.com/2010/10/mary-randolph-carter-on-lives-well.html

the next read in my que.  (tho i really MUST find some fiction and get down to it.  too many essays, yoga texts, research studies on child development, and pushes to continue on a creative path are going to keep me awake for the rest of my LIFE.)

ahem.

i would venture to say it's every mother's plight - a home that never ever feels clean or tidy?  i beat myself up over this a LOT inside.  not because i feel like others are judging me.  just b/c i am judging me.  and i hate it.

i'm really well organized.  my dad used to joke that my room looked like a disaster but if he asked me where anything was i could find it.  this is still true.  we have all the makings of organization.... i know where all our important things are... most everything has a place... but i can't ever seem to catch up on the keeping tidy.
i spend an hour cleaning the bathroom and then, while helping adam go poop, i notice a random sock on the floor behind the toilet.  our desk is a CONSTANT stack of books, bills, important documents"to be filed," post it notes with shopping lists and songs we want to download.  i can't be 100% certain our sink has ever been without a dish inside.  our fridge always has a new fun smell each month.  and i pretty much live out of the pile of clothes sitting beside my dresser, instead of those that are actually stored inside it.  we do a pretty good job of keeping CLEAN.  and a pretty bad job of keeping TIDY.

sigh.

anyhow, maybe this book will make me feel better about it and help me embrace my life - the life that has me so exhausted from doing what i LOVE (opening and navigating a new business, teaching yoga, growing a little jumping bean inside, being a mom and wife...) that by the end of the day, i could give a crap about the pile of 14 shoes by the door, the fact that the kitchen table has become a design and print studio, and adam's pj's from 3 days ago are still laying on the bathroom floor..........................